Monthly Archives: January 2011

Dreams

I have read of many baby loss moms who wish that they would see their lost babies in their dreams.  I’ve never been one to have people who have passed show up in my current dreams, so it’s not something … Continue reading

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Just when I thought it was safe

In the last few months, my confidence in being safely out in the world again has been growing a little at a time.  I’ve made it through quite a few situations unscathed – encounters with people asking if I’ve had my … Continue reading

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The Unexpected Elements of Grief

Coming up on the 4 month mark of losing my sons, I now know that I really knew nothing about grief (and probably still know very little).   The loss of grandparents or friends of friends or even miscarriage did nothing … Continue reading

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Jinxing

After so many years of infertility – the trying on our own, the IUI, numerous IVF cycles here and even IVF in Europe – all these fertility treatments with the end result being BFN, miscarriage or infant loss, I find myself always waiting for the … Continue reading

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Seeking Approval

First, thanks to everyone who has stopped offering their support – it is really so very kind and makes me a bit teary to know that so many people care about me and the short but poignant lives of my … Continue reading

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Fortune cookies

Several weeks (or maybe by now it is months) ago we enjoyed one of our favorite types of food – Chinese food.  I am always amused by the fortune cookies and wonder what my fortune will be.  Usually it is something … Continue reading

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Due Date

I’m not sure how this snuck up on me, but sitting at my desk this morning, I realized that today was my due date.  That is, the date that all of the IVF calculators showed as my due date.  Of course, … Continue reading

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