Do you happen to follow this blog? http://mylifeafterloss.blogspot.com/2011/10/steady-rock.html It is a mom who has repeatedly experienced IC (incompetent cervix), PPROM (premature rupture of membranes) and infant loss, along with delivering her twins very, very early.
I find it interesting – even though I don’t share her beliefs, I can respect her for following what she so strongly believes. And the way she shares her beliefs is so non-judgemental, I think it is refreshing.
Anyway, I found her current post about TAC (transabdominal cerclage) interesting. It made me ask myself – if I knew that I could very likely have TAC and prevent IC/bedrest/PPROM, would I want to be pregnant again? That is, assuming we decided we wanted another child? I honestly don’t know the answer to this.
I’m not sure if the question came to mind because a TAC was something I didn’t fully explore before deciding NO MORE TTC? I think any pregnancy (and I mean any at all – myself or a surrogate) was more scary than I could even contemplate at that stage of grief and trauma recovery when we made the decision to move forward with adoption.
Now, although I do find that as time passes it is somewhat easier to watch pregnancies/delivery stories on TV, I still come very near breaking out in a cold sweat when I see or even read about a delivery because of the trauma I still feel from my twin pregnancy, bedrest, and emergency c-section delivery. So NOT what delivery is supposed to be like.
So, I’m curious, for those of you whose doctors recommended “no more pregnancies” due to IC or PPROM – if you could safely have a TAC and be – let’s say 90% assured of not experiencing IC, bedrest or PPROM, would you want to try again? Or does the whole concept of reliving that trauma or fear of everything that can go wrong in pregnancy too much to contemplate, so that the thought of a pregnancy is no longer even desirable?